im realy having a nothing month. im not phased by anything that is going on. i am going arround with i dont care attitude. sorta sad i guess but it works. ive become quite surcluded over these holidays as i havent spent much time with anyone partly my own fault and all but what ever what can you do!!!
thats all i got people
peace

well it has been quite an exciting week!
i started uni and im loving it!!! the people there are awesome!!! the teachers are awesome!!! the classes are aweseom!!! the facilities are awesome!!!
what can i say the place is awesome!!!
this weeek we have been working on sibelious the music arranging programe and it is the best fun. we get a 10 minute break ever hour and an hour for lunch. im only there from 10 till 3.30 which is pretty cool. so i basicaly spend more time out of the class room than in it. lol
when it comes to lunch time the teacher is out of the room before we are lol. we go down to the 'caff' thats what our music class has decided to call it anyways. then we head down to the student lounge to feast on our deep fried treats.
i think it was wednessday when we again were on the computers doing this sebelious thing we all have keyboards conected to the computer. one kid started a drum rythm on his keyboard then someone started playing a melodie and then everyone else put a new rythm or line over the top of it. high school musical eat your hart out!!!! was quite bizzar but amusing at the same time. then some kid started playing jump on there also and then we all started singing allong to it. lol.
mind you the teacher was in the room at the time and was also trying to teach to the class but no we were ingoring her singing at the top of our lungs.
its so different to highschool its not funny
im loving it tho.
its realy cool the way the class is set up. there are two distinct groups. the electro, jazz, funk group then theres the metal heads. lol
now this is a class that every musician wishes they were in lol.
i think thats all
untill next time peace bitches!!!

Current Mood: crazy

yeah bradens party was an eventfull evening.
i think its time i set the record strait in the way of what roumours have been said:
1. no one through themselves on each other in reguards to me and kasia....sorta just happend
2. suzi and i are just friends!!!!! FRIENDS DAMN IT!!!!
3. Kasia was no rebound for not geting with suzi, who is the dumb fuck who started that one. stupid ignorant fuckwhit!!!!
4. suzi doesnot like me anything more than a friend!!
5. i sorta do have an infatuation with kasia but that is ALLLL!!!!!!!
6. who ever belives these roumours is FUCKED IN THE HEAD!!!!

yeah appart from that it was a good party except for someone coming up and grabbing my groin extreemly hard it wasnt good.(sorry made a typo but now its fixed, cant belive i didnt see it earlier how embarisment)
was dissapointing that emma wasnt there. i havent seen her in a while and weekends are realy the only times we can catch up and yeah...
i think that is all
was noice meetin the person behind flock master lol.
now i think i have finished
untill next time peace bitches!!!

Current Mood: crappy

yeah i had my enrolment for uv aka THE SCHOOL OF ROCK! yesterday.
i was realy scared about going there. a whole new bunch of people i didnt know and the fear of being out done by the level of musical tallent that is in my course and being labled crap. but then i thought i did the same thing as they all did to get in and they chose only what they thougth was the best so it made me a little happier and confident. the kids that i enrolled with seemed to be realy nice and quite down to earth. most of our convostations consisted of what you play, what you like, whats your influences, bla, bla ,bla. it was realy good tho.
i got my photo taken for some id card through a web cam so my picture is all fuzzy and is crappy but oh well...could be worse. but yeah i cant wait till i start. shall be fun for all involved i think.
i also enrolled at the cfa last night. do my bit for the comunity or what ever. but yeah will be allot of fun i reccon. my dad is joining also and posibly cameron so it will be good tooo.
well thats all she wrote for now
peace

Current Mood: happy

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now you know what i want you to know. the only way you can desypher this msg is by using the one thing that everyone has and uses all the time. you find this you crack the code. also you crack this you will then understand every other post i have made here on this live journal thing. there is one person this is purely aimed at if they cant break it no one can
peace peoples!!!

Current Mood: melancholy

gahhhh nothing to do today!!
well actualy i lie...i have to clean up the house cos there is someone coming through to look at buying it. fuck them!!!!
i had the most awesome dream last night... wish i could have stayed there. was one where i was in a perfect world with perfect people. was quite desturbing how much i longed to go back to sleep hoping i may enter this dream world once more. my dream world is not to far away from the real world. there is only one thing different in my dream to what is reality. it is my mission to seek out making this dream reality!!!!

you say i have lots of spelling mistakes??? i dont care
i finished school so i dont have to worry about it.

my thougts feelings and emotions are currently FUCKED UP!!!!
seriously what is Fucking wrong with me????
how can i justify my serious lack of spine??
fuck it!!! im sic of it!!!!
have it your way!!!
i tell a few people how i feel about sertain person and they go and tell them!!!! when i talk to people privately i hope that what i say is held in confidence and doesnt become the next fucking gosip topic.
i come to you guys for help!!! but all i seem to recive from some is a fucking kick in the face. what did i do to deserve that?
all i was doing was trying my hardest to do the right thing by sertain person.
i think this person is awesome and they only deserve the best. i only want them to have the best reguardless of weather its me or the guy down the street i dont care.
my main concern here is that i feel that these people making a joke out of my emotions and feelings is stupid and childish. GROW THE FUCK UP!!!!
i value my friendship with this person so verry much. i have not met somenone like them in so verry long. they are the most nice and caring person i have met. i havent had many friends with that level of coolness.
i have a great freind in this person. i cant promise them the world but if i could give it to them i would try everything in my power to do so because they deserve only the best.
so if you are one of those people who are saying thing please give it up. i dont apreciate you guys bagging me when you cant even comprehend where and why i am coming from.
peace

Current Mood: indescribable

my drum kit is the best thing in the world. i was playing today and it was an exillerating experience. the rush i get from playing is amazing. it is better than anything esle i have ever felt in my life. the feeling of being on stage in front of people who actualy want to see you perform is amazing.
for me my drumkit is an extention of my boddy allowing me to articulate and express my emotions. if i am having a bad day my playing will be heavy and powerfull. a good day it will be bubbly and spontaious.
to play well is to be one with your intrument and treat your intrument as if it was a person close to your hart. you dont beat up on your friends or loved ones which is the same for the drums. you dont smash the crap out of your drum kit. you have to teat people with respect and treat them with love. in order to master the drumkit you have to learn how to do these things to those arround you and who you care about most dearly so you then can take these feelings and emotions to the kit and apply them with the same rules. this goes for any instrument.
your probably thing what the hell am i on saying all this stuff but i dont realy care. the best way for you to understand is to practice what i have just said. play like youve never played before. become your instrument. move with it. feel its needs.
i cant stress enough how important it is to do this. channle your emotions and allow them to flow through into your instrument. i can guarentee you, you will never feel anything like it in your life.

Current Mood: grateful